Sigh.

So this has been kind of an odd week. Mostly not good. For one Sarah's mom passed away on Thursday afternoon (the friend from the previous post). It's hit me pretty hard...

I've just spent several minutes typing more on that then erasing it...maybe I'll have my thoughts put together another time. Jay, Stacey, and I are planning on attending the wake on Tuesday. Needless to say I wish that I could do something to help take the hurt away from Sarah. I hate that moms don't live forever. And I really hate when moms pass away too early, much too early.

Next topic for now. Steve. Another situation that is weighing on me. I'm so upset by how he has been, and is treating Stacey, and the incredibly stupid decisions he's made. There's really nothing I can do about it, because as my mom likes to remind me, "you can only control/change yourself." I don't know how to let go of the anger. I don't like knowing that there are people in this world that have bad hearts, who hurt people, and at least for the time being, get away with it.

Which leads me to the next topic. On Wednesday I walked into work (summer pre-K) to find one of my co-workers, let's call her "Karen" bitching at one of the girls who works with me as a one-on-one, let's call her "Jamie." It upset me very much to hear Karen speaking to Jamie in a nasty tone. I went to find and console Jamie after things appeared to be over and Karen returned to continue bitching. It was awkward and I didn't know what to do since it didn't really involve me. Jamie is awesome at her job and Karen is well known for having favorite assistants and making drama over non-issues, which this was. The whole program is SUCH a mess, I don't even have words.

And then there was a dinner with my family on Thursday night...what can I say...let's just put it this way, it's another thing that is weighing on me at the moment. I certainly am in a funk currently, doing almost nothing but watch television today didn't help. I get very upset about "wasting" a day, not doing anything worth anything.

On another note I read the last Harry Potter this week from Tuesday to Friday non-stop. It was excellent but got me in a weird funk which I can't seem to shake or understand. I loved the book, so I dunno...

There's a little more too, but that's enough for now. Tomorrow's a new day, let's hope that I make the best of it. Any suggestions?